endings and beginnings

endings and beginnings

The energy of the recent eclipses has been the most powerful I've experienced in a long time.

I've witnessed significant changes in the world around me and have been seeing this play out in other people's lives too.

During this time I've been reflecting on the idea of endings and beginnings.

Recognising my own endings I recently made the decision to take some time off.

To give myself time to simply just do nothing.

It's been the first time in my adult life that I've given myself permission to fully turn off and just let myself be - with no time set for a return.

I realised pretty quickly that I've been living life with a voice inside of my head that demands I 'be productive'.

A voice that shames me whenever I am tired or can't give 100%. 

A voice that sounds more like a tyrant than a friend.

It will probably be no surprise to hear that letting go of this voice has come as a tremendous relief.

I feel lighter, healthier and more inspired.

And the stats don't lie - my Resting Heart Rate and Heart Rate Variability scores are at there all time bests since I started recording them.

Whilst staying true to my commitments, I've been treating every day like a Sunday.

This includes chilled out mornings with a novel, exploring new natural landscapes and spending quality time with friends.

I've been allowing myself to live life with complete freedom and most crucially - living it shame and guilt free. Zero judgement.

In these past few weeks, I've let an old version of myself die.

A version governed by the mind - that has been conditioned by societal expectations to work hard in order to have any sense of self worth.

Funnily enough, I've find myself working harder now and with much more juice - more enthusiasm.

I'm feeling more passionate, feeling in touch with my purpose - I want to work.

And not because a computer inside of my mind is forcing me to do so - No!

It's because I'm living from a place of love, a place where I want to create, a place where I'm in a state of flow and appreciation.

I'm living from a place where my body, soul and mind are all aligned.

In terms of beginnings I've been thinking about how I can show up more authentically.

How I can make my offerings more aligned with my energy and the vision of what it is that I want to create in this world.

I'm finished with doing things by the book, I want more exctiement and I'm ready to step into a new era where I truly just let go.

This period of time feels like a significant moment of death and rebirth, and I'm super excited for what the future holds.

Thanks for tuning in.

And if you want to discuss any of these topics, the recent eclipse, endings and beginnings, your own personal story - then please reach out, I'd love to hear from you :)